Shayne ♥’s Blog

i’m like a kid. i still strongly believe in happily-ever-afters and fairy tales. i can’t help it. i’ve been brought up to believe in happy endings and that dreams do come true. naive,huh? and utterly foolish. mock me if you will and call me idealistic but i realized that it is this hoping with childlike audacity that makes me who i am: a person who imagines the perfect moments and creates in her head a projected image of who she aspires to be. well, basically it’s all in the head and i read that imagination is merely the ignition while determination is the engine. but i long ago learned that not everything turns out the way we’ve envisioned it to be. i will contradict a popular line from the book, the alchemist, that goes along the lines of: when you want something, the universe conspires for you to achieve it…” it’s not exactly verbatim but you get what it says. but as i mentioned i will contradict it because i think it goes the other way around, that the world conspires against you so that you may not be able to achieve your perfect person or whatever end it is you pursue. i know it’s such an unhumanistic and pessimistic perspective but i think it’s true. so my point? ok, i’m getting there…no matter how frustrating things turn out, i become my hopeful self and say maybe God has better plans for me…and that happy ending is on its way.

so everything you so perfectly pictured to the littlest detail in your mind doesn’t exactly end, go, or begin the way you wanted it to but it doesn’t mean there’s no happy ending, for me the secret it is like a jigsaw puzzle, an image that’s undefined, vague, and missing. keep that missing part of the puzzle clear and at one point the missing piece would soon find its way and you’ll get a clearer, fuller and complete picture of what you’ve been waiting for. and you’ll realize its perfect. you have to keep the space (in your heart) clear just like in that jigsaw and when that “moment” arises, you just know without knowing why that it’s the perfect piece you’ve been missing. but don’t rush to fill in that gap because i think it is in the search for that piece that gives you a clue, an inkling, of how that missing piece should be. making any sense? just don’t substitute the missing piece for something that fits somehow but not snugly and precisely because there will always be a gap, an empty space but too small enough to fill.

so right now, that “perfect fit” hasn’t come yet…maybe that puzzle piece isn’t the right one, right now, or even right one in the future, and eventhough that wrong piece finds it’s way to the space you’ve been saving, as much as it hurts, learn to let go because you know in your heart, someone/something better will fit perfectly.